every body's got one/maybe it's time to go

Some people use drugs or drink to make themselves feel better. Some people overindulge in food, sex, or the internet. Some people even cut themselves. None of these do much for me.

I overspend. I know what I need and what I can live without, but the more stuff I can gather to shove into my hoard makes me feel better...slightly. I just delve into myself and live in my own thoughts where the only person that can hurt me is me; this is my bubble, a safe place that few others are allowed to access.

These are all to transfer the emotional pain people feel into something tangible; a physical pain that they can control. There are no bandaids for emotional scars and many people wait until they start to scab before reopening the wound.

Yes, it's painful, but it's a pain more easily controlled. Sometimes the pain is controlled by simply not feeling it anymore
or anything else anymore
and just leaving.

Whatevs. I'm noving out anyway

Off day does not mean "yes I can help you" I don't want to help you or your friends that I haven't met and don't know.

They might be cool people, but I had to put on pants and go outside to and "clean up the yard" because your friends wanted to come swim...where the fuq are you? I don't entertain random annoyances. These yo people, you deal with them.

Basically i dont fux with new people too much. My friends know this. Fuk em til I know em. And even then a lot of new randoms can step.